Conversations are a way of determining and affirming compatability.

I don't usually go to parties where the strangers outnumber my friends, usually it is the inverse. I don't really understand the purpose of big parties like that; I just hung out with the people I know. Maybe a lot of the people there know samples of people from each of the groups so they walk around and catch up. I don't know. I mostly just talked to Alana and Deirdre and Ferron and Dana. Janessa popped in and was enthusiastic about something. I suppose if I was two years older I would have gone to school with a lot of people there.

Talking to intelligent people that I like is a nice change from listening to average people that I work with. Some people just talk so much about nothing, and they say the same things over and over. People that I like don't do that. Write that down.

Even with friends, though, conversations are a challenge for me. I think I am good at encouraging them to speak by asking questions and things like that, but I have deficient skill in coming up with interesting things to say. For instance, many times when it would have been appropriate for me to add something, I just said "yeah, for sure... yeah, that's really interesting." BLANDOBOT ALERT!! Somebody call BLAND-11 we've got a really lame conversationalist here he is on the couch oh please send someone quick. I am getting better, though, most definitely. Yeah. Yeah, I'm happy with how I'm getting better.

I also did some thinking about conversations. Is it the content of the conversations that is truly important, or the resulting developments of the relationships? I think I remember the progess of my relationships much more than the content of the conversations that helped to develop them. That being said, conversations seem to be crucial to a meaningful relationship. It is a way of determining and affirming compatibility. It is a fast way to learn about people's minds.

Conversations were a physical strain for me too because I am sick and I should go to the doctor. I think my diet may be causing a strain on my immune system, and also maybe giving me headaches. I don't know what I'm doing wrong but I haven't been paying attention either. I've been sick twice in the past month, and by twice I mean once for a really long time but it flared up twice.