I had my wisdom teeth pulled on Friday. I spent Friday, Saturday, and Sunday recovering. I feel like I could continue recovering (i.e., drifting in and out of consciousness, watching movies, having baths) all week but that would interfere with my priorities.
I work for an hour and forty-five minutes a day, but I don't want to. That is how I feel about it right now. It would be much easier if the kids were friends and cliqued up and played their own weirdo games, but they are not and must be dragged through activities constantly. I only know so many activities. There is a 13-year-old there each day. What am I supposed to do with him? Why is he even there!?
School is causing me stress. I think the reason is that I really, really want to succeed, and must revamp my old habits in order to do so. I want to be a professor, you know. I want to learn to love this stuff. I can't fail. If I fail I will have nothing left to turn to. I tried the day-job-life, it is shitty and empty. I know science fits my brain, I hear it calling me, and so I can't fail. So far I am mainly on top of things, but soon there will be essays and exams and essays within exams. Like a knight marching off to war, I feel pangs of fear, quiet whispers of terror.
And I'm right sick of these sore teeth and puffy cheeks. I do not look handsome. I look chubby, and young. I dislike it. Also, the blood is giving me bad breath.
I am done blogging and I don't feel any better.
1 comments:
Wisdom teeth are the devil's tool! You may have heard that it's that game with the fifteen numbered balls, but that is incorrect. When I had my wisdom teeth out, my friend playfully hit me in the face, and the inside of my mouth started bleeding. It's not a very good story, except that it was kind of the worst, and I bore a grudge against him for the longest time, because he couldn't FEEL MY PAIN!
I think most of us are aboard the good ship School-Stress right now. In some ways that's good. If you felt like you could coast through the semester and hang out at B5Qs all the time, you might crash and burn a bit. School happens to be pretty stressful, and to some degree it's healthy to be stressed about it. Thankfully, to help with the bad stress, there is the north wing of the library, study-parties, baths, taking breaks, going to bed early, reading, exercizing and playing games, and friends... among other things. Taking time to do things to combat stress will see you through!
Also, have you tried giving the 13 year old a comic book?
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