I've realized a few things! Sweet!
Here they are:
1. I need faith in humanity in order to feel hope
2. I need to feel hope in order to be happy
3. A big problem I have is that I despair.
When I am in a homework bind, I despair. Then I nearly give up. And then I am stuck feeling hopeless about myself as well as humanity! Then that cycles either until I sleep, or for a little longer.
So, finding hope for humanity and abstaining from despair are my big challenges. They are daunting! But at least I have identified two big challenges.
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I used to worry about myself and humanity. I worried that either I would become perfect, contribute everything, and it would amount to nothing or I would become nothing, contribute nothing, and it would amount to nothing. I thought, even if everything went perfectly, the planet is still just a speck of dust and you could imagine some galactic perspective that cared as much about earth as they did about me (that is, they cared not at all). The conclusion I came to while thinking like this is that that is a rather hopeful position as it places me in a position where it doesn't matter what I do except in so far as I want what I do to matter. I define my own meaning and I command my own importance. That, I think, is empowering. I choose to play games, practice my fitness, write love poems, care about people, and enjoy myself while I do these things. I recognize that this position does not inherently create a need to care but I think it creates the only situation in which ones caring is truly worth anything.
Hey Andrew, I really appreciate this perspective. Thank you.
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